Girl Number 9

Oct 26, 2008

Sun Oct 26, 2008

in case you guys didnt know.....

im super bangerang. :D

Oct 25, 2008

Sat Oct 25, 2008

oh..

oh yes.

Oct 23, 2008

Thus Oct 23, 2008

guess who has to buy a new laptop.

since i havent been able to update in almost a week.....heres a photo of my freshly pierced boobs. haha

my tits look lopsided, but i swear its just the angle.

im going to be honest......the only reason why i got them pierced is because i fell in love with a pair of nipple shields. i saw them and heard angels sing. i shit you not, you could have called me a christian for like 3 minutes. for those 3 minutes...there was a god. and he sent me nipple shields.

anyway, im taking the piercings out of my back on sun or mon. im going to miss them, but i think theyve had a good run. 2 1/2 years to be exact.

things porcelain will be able to do when she takes her back piercings out...
-fuck on carpet
-fuck on counter tops
-fuck on tables
-wear fishnet shirts
-not worry about laying on one "the wrong way" while i sleep.
-not have to readjust myself on the couch
-slip corsets on, with ease.
-freely flip extensions around, without them getting caught.
-massages
-loofas!

...those are just from the top of my head........but im excited. its like a whole new world of opportunities has opened up to me. haha yay! dont worry though...this will not be the end for me. im merely making room for more. ;) however, my plan is to keep everything subtle-ish.

subtle is sexy, i think. well....more like bam and subtle. you wouldnt think those 2 words could become friends....but im very persuasive. oo lala.

Oct 18, 2008

Sat Oct 18, 2008

i got my nipples pierced! but i dont have any good photos of it yet. ill show you guys sooooonn.

i have a burlesque show tonight and im super nervous. im doing this one routine i do all the time, but then im doing this other routine for halloween....that i havent actually figured out yet. :-/ wish me luck!

if youre not doing anything tonight, its at bull city headquarters in durham, nc. :) theres going to be burlesque, fire breathers, drag kings, dancing. its going to be the shizam!

the date on it is obviously wrong, cause it had to be rescheduled, due to rain.

come out!

xoxo

Oct 15, 2008

Wed Oct, 15, 2008

this is what happens when sara comes back to visit me a week later....

you may think you know what was going on here......but im going to be honest.....you probably dont. haha.

Oct 14, 2008

Tues Oct 14, 2008

this is what happens when sara comes to visit.

we are in love and im going to force her to do porn with me.

Oct 13, 2008

Mon Oc 13, 2008

:D!!!!

anthony took me to the beach, and it was like magic in a can!

we got to the hotel (which i think was one of those time share things?), and the first thing we did was read all the lovely little notes that other guests had left the owner. i think they all copied each other though...

then we participated in some extracurricular activities! :-O <=====3

then we walked to the beach, as the sun was setting......... and walked back, because it was fucking cold. haha. everyone was wearing sweatshirts, and we were in our bathing suits. we looked like a sad little couple, desperate to enjoy the beach. but it was ok, cause we know how much cooler we are than them. i mean, who fishes on the shore? losers. they were all losers. unless someone, whos reading this, fishes on the beach shore. then youre not a loser. it was just them.

after that, we felt inspired, and wanted to eat sea food for din din. i had crab cakes. they were the shiznit.

some crazy woman hit my car in the restaurant parking lot. because thats just what happens to me. she didnt do anything to my car though,. so i told her to go away and stop making me uncomfortable.

we start driving back to the hotel, and then realize we want to go on an adventure.

we saw a citco, and knew that was the ticket.

they sold shells on sticks.

i think they were supposed to look like roses.....i dont really know. but we thought they were god damn amazing, and bought all of them......

ALL OF THEM.

then i found a moose hat.

and a hot dog hat.

i bought them both. i let the hamburger hat slide.

so after the adventure, that was citco, we went back to the hotel for the advanced stage of extracurricular activities. it involved love and baby prevention. :)

we watched incino man and went to bed.

in the morning, my hunny bunny woke me up for one last walk on the beach, before we fled home. it was warm and lovely. i watched happy birds and happy dogs and nothing could have filled me with more glee.

i ended up picking out 2 of my favorite sea shells so that anthony could have one and i could have one and we could remember our little beach trip forever. :) i know. im a fag. :)

now comes the best part....

we were driving home and passed by this pop's diner place, that had a huge statue of a hot dog pouring ketchup on himself!!!!!!! I HAD TO EAT LUNCH THERE. we parked, went inside....the place is super 1950's and owned by this kick ass dude, who is an elvis impersonator!!!!!!!!! he did a little impression for us while we were scarfing down our hamburgers and hotdogs, and i decided to love him forever. he also gave me home made ice cream that was absolutely delectable.

we proceeded to listen to elvis most of the way home.

Oct 12, 2008

Sun Oct 12, 2008

i still hate my x best friend/soul mate for breaking my heart.

i feel like im going through a bad break up or something. i never realized loosing a friend could be just as intense as loosing a lover.

she sent me this message on facebook saying im a bad friend who lowers her self esteem, and cant understand her pain.

it only made me hate her more for being so blind and ungrateful.

i dont want to be in love anymore.

i cry :'(

Oct 11, 2008

Sat Oct 11, 2008

maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan do i have a story for you guys.

my laptop killed itself, so im using the clubhouse computer at my apartamento complex. its being fixed though, so i get it back on monday. then i can update a little more regularly again.

ok.

so maybe it wasnt that much of story.

i went to an 8 hour driving class today! im super proud of myself!! i might be able to keep my license! :D

are you excited??? are you EXCITED?!?

of course you are.

last night at work was crazy. there were so many fights. and all i have to say about them is this....
i aint tryin to fight you!
i aint tryin to fight you!
i aint tryin to fight you!
i aint tryin to fight you!
you instigatin!
you instigatin!
you instigatin!
you instigatin!

i swear. some people just need to lay off that crack cocaine.

but not me.

when i do it, its hot.

tell me you love porcelain, and her crack cocaine.

mmmmmm.

i want to see quarantine!

i dont want to work tonight.

i really hate that everyone thinks im that girl from porcelain and the tramps.

im so not that cool.

or am i? :)

maybe some day....

i should have gone to sleep last night.

damn.

i have to work in a couple hours.

red bull it is, then.

cross your fingers for me, that i will live through the night.

Oct 6, 2008

Mon Oct 6, 2008

hi.

this girl is deathly afraid of pickles.

Oct 5, 2008

Sun Oct 5, 2008

so ive desided that the "your mom" jokes, never get old.

ever.

what was that?

what the fuck did you just say to me?

thats funny.....

your mom said the same thing about YOU.

.....last night.

.....wilst giving me head.

.....

.....i was all up in that mouth.

:-O

Oct 3, 2008

Fri Oct 3, 2008

i dont know how ive slithered my way into this shit hole limbo, but i feel like ive been here forever.

i just want someone to pat my head and kiss my forehead like they mean it.

it really sucks when people you care about, dont care about you half as much as you do them. or they dont act like it. or they dont care about you the way you want them to. and im so sick of pretending like none of it bothers me. people think i dont feel anything, just because of how sarcastic i am. but having a humorous approach to things, just makes serious issues easier to deal with. its like theyre not really happening.....or youre not really thinking about it, because youre too busy cracking jokes.

im sick of being lied to.

im sick of people only being intrigued by how "mysterious" i am. as soon as im figured out, game over.

im sick of people telling me they love me, when they dont know anything about me.

i dont think im the type of person that someone could fall in love with, anyway. im just an idea. theres nothing behind my facade and no one wants me home for dinner.

what a shitty journal entry.

Oct 1, 2008

Wed Oct 1, 2008

omgomgomgomgomgomgomgomg

Sept 27, 2008 (2)

Sat Sept 27, 2008 (2)

question: why does peter pan pick the fat kid, to lead the lost boys, when he leaves?

the fat kid?

really?

this has bothered me for yeeeeaars.

i dont have anything against fat kids....except that their parents dont know when to tell them to stop eating...

but how is a fat kid going to fight for, and defend, the lost boys? and dont you tell me hook is gone and they dont have to worry about anything. cause you know grown ups will forever hate happy children. them little chit-lins have to be prepared....and how can you be prepared, when your leaders only defense, is to transform into a human cannon ball?

can he even hold a sword?

i know that bitch cant crow...

Sept 27, 2008

Sat Sept 27, 2008

ok so im watching hook, because i didnt go to sleep last night, and i can actually feel the magic protruding from my television screen.

i want to go to neverland!!

im already bangerang....why not me?

.....why not me.

i remember when i was younger, i totally wanted rufio to feel me up. i dont know if i feel the same way now. i mean...dont get me wrong...hes still super hot. but hes a super hot wee lad. id feel like a dirty rapist.

when i was in 10th grade, i was friends with this super punk dude with a mohawk. he would walk me home from school and we'd make out in tunnels. haha. but what im getting at, is that i think i liked him, cause he always reminded me of rufio. i mean. he kind of dressed like him..and he had that mohawk...and he presented himself as this total bad ass. if he'd picked up a sword and started crowing....maybe told me i was the most bangerang gal around.....i would have melted. i would have melted everywhere.

back to hook.

this movie always makes me cry, because i want a dad so bad. when rufio is dieing, he looks up at peter and says that he wishes he had a dad like peter. i do too.....im supposed to be daddy's little girl. :( i was never given the opportunity.

i want to feel love the way everyone feels love, in neverland. i want every day to be an adventure. i dont care if that makes me irresponsible.

"remember that place between sleep and awake.... thats where ill always love you."

i think im just afraid to grow up.

i wish i could have met the writer of peter pan. i hope hes the way they portray him in Finding Neverland. that would make me happier than a pimento olive. :)

im getting super distracted by how incredible dustin hoffman is, so..........i must.........walk.......the plank.

Sept 26, 2008

Fri Sept 26, 2008

so, im sitting here drinking my favorite vodka....

and watching one of the most magical shows.

its making me feel a lot better about........well.......everything. haha. its been quite a month.

one of those snickers commercials just came on.

yes.

those commercials fill me with glee.

i wish i could say more, but im in an awful mood. :(

ill have a better journal entry tomorrow.